He wanted to make her laugh. He wanted to sit and listen to her talk about books until his ears fell off, but all these were things he could not want. And wanting what you could not have lead to misery and madnesss.
I was always a very serious child. I remember being, like, 13 and the girls were like, “Felicity is going to kiss Ben on the school field”. It’s amazing I had any friends! Because I remember saying, “Well, that’s stupid. It’s too young to mean anything. He doesn’t love her, and that’s just a waste of time.”